Too tired

Relationships are too hard. I don't think I do them well. I don't know how I get into these situations where I am fighting for something I barely know is worth fighting for. I can't accept an apology I know is so heartfelt and sincere. It's still bugging me and I want to learn to let go. Mars and Venus, English vs. American, Yeshiva vs. not...sound familiar to anyone ahem ahem SD? I don't know what this is. Memories that have been displaced...misplaced? Place association. I associate our relationship with the place and hopefully will imagine it here. Somehow I doubt he will come. Somehow I doubt it all. Somehow I doubt I will sleep soundly and wake up with my voice again.