I don't want to see you in my Facebook stream
I want to forget that you ever existed
That we contemplated the future
Because you are not the boy I once knew then
The one I want to savor in memories
Have appear in dreams
This new found you is too harsh
Too rough around the edges
Avoids real confrontation at all costs
And still won't take risks

I want to hide hide hide you
So I don't have to see what you're bothered by today
What happened that prompted an email and an update
Let it all just come as a surprise to me, or better that I had not known at all
I don't need a random reminder of what would have been
What once was
What will never be
I have my memories for that
My brain that does not sleep
Even now
Even past the point of exhaustion
And 16 hour days
And I didn't know you would pop up again so often, so unexpectedly

Tonight I am one year older in G-d's eyes and yet in an instant I went back in time by three