First of all, let me preface this by saying I am LOVING this mobile blogger!
Anyway, so I'm going through this phase of regret coupled with this confusion. I am all at once immersed in this "fast-paced" world that is New York just trying to make a life, and realizing that a life not truly lived isn't worth living. And at those moments of clarity I miss Israel the most. Where I never knew how rich my life was until now. So in these days of late I keep thinking about how I can envision myself moving back and wondering how soon or if it really will be a reality.
But if that's the case, why am I planning to move into the city when money can be saved best at home? I guess because I have to live that life too. I just wish I wasn't going to live it alone...
You know, sometimes I still very much want the apartment in Neve Tzedek with the garden and Tzfat-azure shutters (I'll fight for the dog too). I look forward to the possibility of someday. I look forward to 2008 bringing the grandeur I hoped for.
Shavua tov.
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terrific entry
Hi,
I totally understand you. I am currently in law school and am constantly asking myself why I came back and did this instead of staying in Israel. Why am I sitting here in this stupid Sales class when I could be having a limonada on the Tayelet in Tel Aviv. But then I think, I am in law school so that someday I can afford to have those limonadas.
Things have a way of working out the way they are supposed to. I am sure if it is in your heart to return to Israel, then you will when the time is right for you. And I know that Israel will still be there when I finish law school, and hopefully I will be able to go there and get a job that I both enjoy and allows me to lead a lifestyle that I can be satisfied with.
Making a living in Israel is hard, as I am sure you know, just think of yourself on a path where your work experience will eventually allow you to go back and provide you with more opportunities.
Good luck!
Marni
Thanks Marni! That really perked up my Monday morning :) And who knows, maybe someday we'll both find ourselves on the tayelet having a chat over some limonadas. B'hatzlacha!
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