Okay, so I guess this is now the official I'm out there post for ya'll.
I realized today that there's so much I miss about the Old Country. I miss dancing till the wee hours of the morning with my girls. I miss lazy American Sundays. I miss Verizon unlimited mobile-to-mobile. I miss Central Park on Saturday. I miss the Yemenite synagogue. I miss my family. I miss my books and my CDs and Manhattan and Washington Square Park and Union Square and Urbana Poetry Slams and...and...myself...
I miss the time when it was okay to be unsure. High school. Harris Field. College. Visiting Nicole on Colonial and getting a grilled cheese. The pre-kosher days. The pre-shabbat days. The "I believe in G-d but that's about it" days. How I miss...
Where did we all go? Have we really grown up and taken responsibility upon ourselves? Is it still okay to be unsure like a baby taking his first steps? When do we finally learn to walk steadily and with confidence?
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It is totally ok to be unsure and to still want to take baby steps. I am sitting at a new desk in a 'new-old' city with new co-workers and I feel so out of place. I wish I were back to the comfort zone, yet I do not know exactly what the comfort zone is or if I ever had one. I guess I am trying to learn to live one day at a time, and sometimes I have to just live one min. at a time. It doesn't always work but on that rare ocassion it does it makes everything worth it. I love you wifey...you are stronger than you realize.
Your posts sound an awful lot like the musings of a certain someone we both know and who we've described as being unable to apply his theory to his life. I'm not claiming hypocracy, but think about it.
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