Today's crazy...and it's only 12:30PM

I had a really great weekend - BBQ shabbat, naptime in the park, drunk off 2 drinks Sat. night with some Albany boys, Superbad (which was super good) with one of the three, and an all around fun time that I haven't had in a while. All I need is a girls' night of dancing.

So I leave for Israel tomorrow night and am supposed to arrive Wed. everning. I'm packing like a nut and will probably pack as many, if not more, pairs of shoes for 3 weeks than I had for a year. I'm crazy, I'm sure. But many I'm just looking forward to looking my best for the next 3 weeks. Who am I kidding...I know I'm just going to wear flip flops the whole time - you can't take the Tel Aviv out of the girl.

Baggage Begone

I beseech you. Release me lest I be left to my own idiosyncrasies.

Come to me in the night like a dream and whisper in my ear the ways that I may release you so that I will no longer be reminded of you in dark corners of this city.

Something in the air

This morning while walking to synagogue, there was a distinct chill in the air. The crisp smell reminded me of the cusp of autumn. Suddenly I envisioned myself walking city streets in a pea coat and scarf, hair straight, denim blue. It felt like the Upper East Side and a memory of a memory. Walking alone to meet someone - a lover perhaps - for brunch at a sidewalk cafe.

The summer heat started to creep into my daydream as I was taken out with a sweat. Another possibility in life. Another option designed to confuse.

How does one find the oneness?

Lately I find myself wrapped up in this big old city and wonder "How does one find meaning in the mundane? How does one find the oneness of it all?" Too many times I am wrapped up in memories of myself at 19, 20, 21 and 22 when it all began. Like blankets they warm me, and when it is too much I begin to shed the layers. Nineteen I lost and found myself. Twenty I grew stronger. Fell in love. Twenty-one I grew even stronger still. Found Israel. Twenty-two I unravelled, fell out, fell hard, fell more deeply in love with Israel still, lost myself.

When the memories rush like waters flowing from a broken dam, I find myself uncontrollably caught falling downstream with them until I wash up on the shores of serenity. If only I could find a way to stay on those shores.

Go Perez, Go Israel, Go Ivri!

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I'm going to Israel!!!!

What up people!!!?!?!?! I have just been informed that I got accepted to a trip to Israel!!!!!!! So b'ezrat Hashem (with the help of G-d), I will be in Israel Aug. 22nd till Sept. 2nd on the trip and my extension is open!!!! Sorry for all the exclamation points but hey, I'm excited to see you all and go to the beach and jump and be in Hashem's glory and learn and love and I'm about to burst. So, with that said, on with the mitzvot and good things, for Hashem provides! (Wow am I a crazy loon of a frummer or what???) xxxxx